| Thursday, January 31, 2008 |
| ENTRY 35: Minor Setback |
So, which is very unlike me, I stuck to my word and "asked" Joan out. As promised, I kept it very casual; I asked her if she had seen such-and-such a movie yet, since I was planning on seeing it later on in the week and was wondering if she wanted to come with. Good? Not good? I need some critique.
Unfortunately for me, she had (would you believe it) just seen the movie the day before, and warned me that it was kinda long, though it did have its good parts. And so, I was left empty-handed. She did, however, thank me for checking...
Minor setback. I don't think she was completely blowing me off...I hope so, anyway. The adventure continues!
BLOG PLAYLIST
"Focus" - Joe Budden
"No Transitory" - Alexisonfire
"Close Edge" - Mos Def
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| Monday, January 28, 2008 |
| ENTRY 34: Curve-balls! |
It's funny. Before I'd be able to do pretty much a post a day; now I can barely manage one post a week. It's not like I have less to say. On the contrary, my life has been throwing me a lot of curve-balls lately, but dammit these are curve-balls I've been waiting for for quite some time now!
Things have really come along at work, and I've been able to settle down into a nice rhythm. On the other hand, I can't help but feel a bit put off by some dissention that is going on there. There is one guy that I hang out a lot with at work, and unfortunately for a lot of others, he is -- there are no two ways about it -- a bona fide, complete asshole. He is impossibly selfish, grossly opinionated, and offensively libertarian; he really doesn't give a shit who he puts off and when. He will say whatever he wants with complete disregard to who is around. At least twice a night I'll think "Did he really just say that? Am I-- Am I really supposed to respond to that?" So obviously, he isn't that well liked.
So why do I hang around with The Asshole? Well as far as geeks go, he and I are a pair of bananas in the same bunch. We're both HUGE comic book enthusiasts; we bring in our favourite titles and trade 'em up. He's introduced me to Robert Kirkman, who has since become my favourite comic book writer, and his titles (Invincible, Brit, and The Astonishing Wolf-Man) have become instant favourites, as well. On the other hand, I've introduced him to Bendis' Powers, which he enjoys. He has a great idea for a comic, and I'll be helping him out with the writing of it. He has introduced me to Lost, which has since usurped Heroes as my favourite currently running show.
All in all, excluding how we treat people, The Asshole & I have a lot in common. I can deal with him abhorrent behaviour, so I stick around. Plus, we're starting to play Dungeons & Dragons. How cool is that?
Okay don't answer that.
Curve-ball #2. As I mentioned in a previous post, Joan of Arc and I are both "junior" youth leaders in my church, and we work with the main youth leader, who is a SAINT. Anyway, over the weekend I confessed to St. Leader about my feelings for Joan, and to my surprise she was excited and happy! I just wanted to get it out of the way so that things wouldn't end up getting awkward and weird, but turns out St. Leader has been trying to play match-maker with me and Joan for quite a while now! On a long drive back from a workshop, she gave me some advice on what I should do and how I should proceed, and so yeah, I'm going to ask Joan out today. Nothing huge, just a movie thingy, but I'm positive that it'll be a good start.
Joan is just coming off stress leave from work, which really surprised me altogether: Joan stressed and out of sorts? Was that even possible?! I tried to be there for her without seeming too weird; she really appreciated it and it I think it brought us closer. During an outing with our young adult group at Church, she actually sought out body contact (leaning against me, hand on arm, etc.)! So yeah, I hope it'll all work out great.
Seriously, I've never felt this way, to the point where I'm actually consciously pursuing a love interest. It's all still so surreal. Me, fighting for love? Really?
Anyway, the curve-balls are coming fast, I just hope I'll be able to get at least some base hits...!
BLOG PLAYLIST
(a new feature, where I write down the songs I've listened to while typing out this post)
"I'm Sprung" - T-Pain
"Impossible" - Kanye West feat. Twista, Keisha Cole & BJ
"Terrorist" - RZA feat. Black Knights & Killarmy
"Rock Co.Kane Flow" - De La Soul feat. MF DOOM
"Strictly For The Heads" - Irs
"Burning Up (extended remix)" - Faith Evans feat. Missy Elliot & Freeway
"No Transitory" - Alexisonfire (Joan's favourite band!)
"Don't Leave Me Girl" - Blackstreet
"Throw Some D's (remix)" - Kanye West
Labels: comics, D and D, Joan, playlist, work |
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| Sunday, January 20, 2008 |
| ENTRY 33: Up-Swing! |
| This is the first time I've been able to say this definatively in a long time: my life is looking up. Seriously! Things are good, and by the looks of it things can only get better! I could go into details about why I feel this way, but in all honesty I not completely sure why this is. Suffice to say that this is the first time in a WHILE that I've felt so optimistic, so this is a big deal. Don't want to break the high, quite yet! |
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| Wednesday, January 16, 2008 |
| ENTRY 32: Getting into a Groove |
Now that I'm getting into film school, I'm trying to get into sort of a writing groove. The more I delve into the mindset, the more prepared I'll be for the classes and the better I'll perform. That's the theory anyway.
Thus, I've taken up a little side project along with one of my World Vision co-workers. He's had this idea for a movie for a while, and has enlisted my help in writing it. It' s been a couple of days, and so far it's been a grueling process trying to flesh out the characters and setting down a concrete plotline (we haven't finished the latter yet). All in all, though, it's a heckuva lot of fun. My co-worker is really excited; I cranked out a couple of pages of script for the end of Act 1, and he exclaims "This is exactly how I pictured it!" Which was pretty awesome.
Gonna go home today and try to finish more of the first act. We still need to work on themes, characters, and plotlines, but for now I can work with what we've accomplished up to this point. Should be doubly challenging since it's supposed to be a comedic script, and I mostly do dramas & film noirs. I have done comedy, but those were just short skits. Overall, it'll be quite the journey!Labels: film school, screenwriting |
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| Tuesday, January 15, 2008 |
| ENTRY 31: The Former |
Not sure where I'm going with this post, but it's been a coupla days so I just thought I should write something.
Well first off, it looks like my school financial problems have all worked out. I submitted my OSAP application, and the estimate showed that I will most likely be fully funded for the program. That means I'll be getting the full $16,800 for the tuition. I will, however, have to pay for the registration fee as well as for books and equipment ($590). My ownly issue now will be how to pay it back. I work overnights, so I don't know how I'll be able to cope with that once I start attending classes full-time. If I don't cut down my hours, I'll be one tired young man. If I do cut down my hours, how the heck will I be able to pay back the student loan? Decisions, decisions.
What else? I talked to Joan of Arc for the first time since before the holidays. Before then, for various reasons, I had been ready to just give up. I wasn't seeing her often enough, and frankly I wasn't quite sure the interest was there. But yeah, I attended church on Sunday, and afterwards she had actively approached me. When she walked by, I (being the dork that I am) nervously started going through my cellphone. After a small pause, she playfully asked who I was calling. I laughed and mumbled something about adding a phone number. Then we started talking.
Wasn't anything climactic, I'll tell you that (don't get too excited). She mentioned how she had had a bad week at work, but we didn't really get into it. My lil' bro was in a hurry to leave, so I departed, and was it just me or did Joan sound a little disappointed as we said our farewells...? Anyway, it was enough to get me to e-mail her. I mentioned that I felt bad that her week went so poorly, and suggested a little bit of escapism with a movie. NO, I DIDN'T ask her out; I merely suggested, since we seem to have similar tastes in movies, that she should check out El Orfanato (The Orphanage). Then I said something about how I hoped her week went a lot better than her last one did.
I wasn't really expecting a response back, so I was kind of surprised when one popped up in my inbox. She mentioned in it that she was happy that I had thought of her, and that she had been thinking about seeing the movie, and would definitely check it out now that I had endorsed it. Kinda taken aback, to say the least. Just being courteous, or should I read between the lines? I'll stick to the former for now.
Wow...long post considering I didn't really know what to write about.Labels: film school, Joan, OSAP |
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| Friday, January 11, 2008 |
| ENTRY 30: OSAP ASAP |
I'm really, really, really excited about my enrollment into Trebas. It's going to be amazing! Learning all the in's and out's, the do's and dont's about filming, directing, editing, and -- best of all -- screenwriting! The Institute just opened up a new studio, as well, so I'm heading to an open house next Wednesday to check it out. That should be awesome as well. The craziest things about it is that classes start February 11th! What?!
One downside: the tuition. I was under the impression that I'd have to pay, say, $5000...something along those lines. Turns out the tuition is a staggering $17,000. Where the hell am I going to find that much money in a month? Hence, why I'm turning to OSAP.
The last time I tried to apply for OSAP, I was turned down because I lived at home and my parents combined make more than 90K. Since then, nothing has changed, so as you can imagine I'm a little anxious. As I type this, I've been filling out the online application. Hopefully the sheer magnitude of the tuition will allow me some leeway in the eyes of the OSAP gods.
My pockets are lookin' kinda empty right now...Labels: film school, OSAP, Trebas, tuition |
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| Wednesday, January 09, 2008 |
| ENTRY 29: One Step Closer to the Dream |
Last couple of days (since Resolution Day, really) I've been kicking around the house, essentially being nothing more than a lazy (and at times, really sick) turd. It took me until early yesterday evening to realize that I had inadvertently accomplished exactly what I had set out to do.
Somewhere along the line, while I acted much like a couch (more of a bed) potato, I was able to get accepted into the Trebas Institute for the Film & Television Production and Post-Production program. In the first and second semesters, we learn (among other things) about screenwriting, which is what I'm truly interested in. Along the way, I'll learn about directing, production, and editing. Couldn't hurt!
On top of that, I may be starting as early as NEXT MONTH! Is that crazy or what? Ha, I was kinda just loafing around the house no more than 5 hours ago, when I stop and was like Whoa...I could be back in school in a couple of weeks! Hadn't realized I was following my Resolution so closely.Labels: film school, resolution, Trebas |
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| Monday, January 07, 2008 |
| ENTRY 28: All Gone! |
If you've been reading my blog you will know that I am an aspiring Number 2 Warrior of the World, and so I've been growing my hair. It had just turned the corner from unruly Amazon underbrush to full-fledged afro when my parents returned from Barbados/St. Vincent.
First order of business, of course, was to trim the hedges. I've lost my afro! Woe is me!
I have to say, though, that my mom did a pretty good job. I am now sporting a long-ish fade style, with rugged facial hair. I'm going for the mutton-chops, baby!Labels: hair |
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| Thursday, January 03, 2008 |
| ENTRY 27: Return to the Grind/Resolution |
Well here I am, back at work for the first time in a couple of weeks. Haven't skipped a beat; tonight is way busier than usual, to the point where it's getting on my nerves. Luckily, I have a little bit of time to actually be writing this down. My bro got me a freakin' diary for Christmas -- why the fuck would he get me one of those when he knows I have this blog? Why, bro, why? LOL well despite the fact that it's a diary, it's an awesome present; the cover art is wicked...maybe I'll use it as a rhymbook when I actually get around to doing music again.
I'm not a New Year's Resolution kinda guy, not even close (Happy New Year everyone, by the way). I feel like if one has to make a change, why wait until New Year's to "make" it? Because more often than not, if you haven't changed yet, it's going to take more than a a new January to make that change occur.
Now if I was a Resolution kinda guy, I know exactly what I'd resolve to do: to get off my ass, for God's sake. My parents are back; I've met them for all of an hour and I've already let them down. One of the main things on my Daunting List was to get an application in for film school, and I haven't done that yet. I spent most of my vacation doing vacation stuff, and forgot to do the things that would really matter (the music & the movie stuff). My own feelings are kinda muddied, but for one, I can sense a lot of shame.
Who knows, maybe I just put it all out there and Resolve to be less of a procrastinator. Set dates -- and actually stick to 'em. Then maybe my life would start moving forward.Labels: film school, music, parents, resolution |
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