So today is my last day on the job before my vacation begins. I would have thought I'd be more excited, but alas this is not the case. Instead, I feel a small, budding sense of apprehension deep in my chest; sometimes I'm worried that I won't be able to accomplish the things I want to get accomplished over this holiday season. Before she left, my mom chewed me out over my lack of commitment and drive; she's under the impression that I'm just going through the motions with this film college application. I really want to go to this school, but as of yet she's right: I haven't done anything to make it happen.
I could have ordered my university transcripts already, but I haven't. I received an e-mail in response to the online application, giving me a phone number to call for further inquiries; I could have called this number but I have yet to do so. Why, even when directed at a true love of mine, is my ambition still lacking? Why can't I just get up and do the things that need to be done?
Fortunately it's not too late to turn it all around. Today will define how much of a success my vacation will be. Will I get off my ass and start making some major moves, or will I sit back flipping channels while opoportunities pass me by? My mom wants answers when she returns; I have to discipline myself to make sure that these answers will be provided.
I'm going to miss my co-workers. There is one guy, whom I shall call S. Asshole, who is self-confident almost to a fault. He can argue anything, will argue everything, and doesn't care who he pisses off because of it. He is my comic book buddy; we both bring in trades and issues that the other has not seen or read yet, discuss current events in the Marvel, DC, and Image universes, and drool over the upcoming Batman: The Dark Night movie. Joker looks WICKED!
There is also Silver Shal, my movie buddy; he brings in his laptop and I provide various DVDs to pass the time. There is also Calm C, a soft-spoken dude with a strong, friendly spirit and a infectious laugh. Big D, my supervisor, and Mario are always good for a laugh as well.
Gonna miss 'em all!
P.S. I'm beginning to cross things off The Daunting List!Labels: ambition, film school, parents, work |
